The Up's & Down's of Life

Let me say this .... that this is the lowest of lows I've gone in my life . thing's have gotten pretty bad and very rough the last few years,
But some how Thing's have worked out for the best.

Let me see what do I say , it all started last year in Sept finally getting squared away with the DMV making sure Lic and Reg were up to date and Insurance was paid up.

I have underestimated and overlooked patterns that I play out. At moments that mistakes and a chain of events starts it is because my starting point was not clear and than it will play out until another moment and also when I do not look at how this starts, I will do it again.

These moments of where I remember a particular event or action I can see one moment that I remember because it happened before, I recognize it for that reason and I can trace back the timeline to find the trigger and the belief system that casts the shadow as the events I experience.

Within this, many of the things that I end up in that I don’t understand I actually do understand when stepping back and looking at the timeline of my actions and how I got here.

And through the process of tracing back myself I step back from the system I have become and look at it and through looking at it in its totality I see my participation and also myself as the solution.

The why I feel a certain way or experience what I experience is clear and the process becomes a process of how I am going to direct myself in such a way that I am not repeating the same pattern once more.

I remember how the soul system was exactly designed like this: facing the same point life after life again.

No more, I do not accept myself to participate in my mind and judge my mind and I do not allow myself to avoid myself and suppress myself, I do not allow myself to linger in the same time-loop and I do not allow myself to force myself or create opposition and fight against my mind.

For the practical solution I have to ground myself in every moment of every breath. Keep it real, keep it physical Here through breath.

Within this I am prepared for energy patterns that run on energy and for energy systems, participation is required through the mind and through breath I stop the mind as I remain here in and as the physical as breath.


This is UNDER CONSTRUCTION ( I'm all messed, up till later) .